I’m Not Okay and That’s Okay

I forgot about this tool and fell into the swamp of “I must be okay” or “I am bad and wrong if I am not okay”.

And so….although these CV propagandas have taken their toll on me by fear at least now I realize how I was sucked into the web of deceit called a “Media Fear Campaign”.

I think I have allergies or am healing from a long ago lung toxin.  Slight feelings of pressure and flem threw me into such a fear state I had panic attacks.  But not only that.  My diet for 4 years has been so extremely healthy of live food filled with oxygen that its likely my theory is correct.

Fear took me to a place of such anxiety that I probably would have gone to dangerous extremes out of desperation to feel okay.

It also seems that contributing to my anxiety is the fact my calming beast system medication I have been on for years no longer seems to be working like it was.

This could be because the drug is weakened.  Or it could be that my diet is pushing it out of my system so fast..or both.

My point is this.  FEAR makes things worse.

My solutions to Fear

The picture is the God Box I made to write down & put my fears in.  Jesus takes my fear, transforms it into a spiritual gift and bestows it back to me.

Confess it, write about it.  Realize it’s okay to be not okay.  12 step meetings.  Focus on my goals and purpose.  Seek God more urgently.  Do fourth step and fifth step to expose fear to the light with an empathic listener who will not judge me.

Also realize that with the propaganda of hydroxychloroquine and ivermectin both are poisons and CDC is busy taken calls from people so scared who were not even sick and poisoned themselves.

When I take alternative cures they are natural not toxic.

Just for today I will trust God.

Just For Today I take myself out of the hands of men to trust and into The Hands of God to learn to trust Him.
Just for today I will try to live through this day only, and not tackle my whole life problems at once.
I CAN do something for twelve hourse that would appal me if I felt that I had to keep it up for a lifetime.
Just for today I will be happy (trust in God be at peace). Most people are as peaceful as they make up their mind to be.
Just for today I will adjust myself to what is, and not try to adjust everything to my own desires. I will take my situation/reality/circumstance as it comes and accept it.
Just for today I will turn from fear. I will study & learn something useful to my walk with God. I will read something that requires effort, thought and concentration.
I shall not mentally loaf except to rest from a job well done.
Just for today I will exercise my spirit in three ways. I will give someone a good turn. I wil do at least two good things I don’t want to do — Just to walk through the fear.
I will be authentic always. I will be vulnerable if necessary to those I trust by sharing fear, pain, hurt feelings or other vulnerabilities of the human condition.
I will be agreeable and look for the similarities rather than differences.
I will put my shoes on and shower, speak with humility, cry if I need to, do no critisism of fault finding. I regulate myself no one else.
If I have indecision I will do nothing.
I will meditate unto God & Pray The Lord’s Prayer daily.
I shall use my God box when I fear and share my fears openly. The Truth shall set me free and so others will not be shamed by their own similar fears.
I accept that I am in God’s hands. Every breath every drop of water & food and my life and my death if it be so are in God’s hands whom I am learning, finally learning________


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