Where is the Most Dangerous Place for a Child to be?

Answer:  Why, in the womb of course.

Passed-on babies are big business, you can research that very gory topic on you tube. I was afraid if I posted photos and videos along that line no one would stick around to read this heartfelt soul saving confession.

The Confession of a repentant mother

Abortion is something far worse than murder.  STOP!  I say not these words to judge you, but rather I Jazweeh am speaking to myself.   I am a child murderer.

I murdered a child who wanted nothing more than my Love.  I did this at a time when murder was deemed “birth control”   I literally had no conscience about the topic.  For that I am deeply grieved with loss and remorse.  I repent and confess now.

The Origin and Atrocity of Abortion

The dashing of the womb is written of in 1st Enoch 69:12 and was taught to humans by the worst of the fallen deities called the fallen angels as it is written of in the Book Enoch 1 and Genesis 6.  The dashing of the womb was/is considered a “medical procedure” innocent and accepted. Also mentioned in 1st Enoch 99:5 and the famous scripture of angels taking human form to marry the daughters of men after whom they lusted Genesis 6:1-5.

I Jazweeh confess to you now, I felt little if any guilt or remorse on the two occasions that I engaged in this horrific slaughter of the innocent.  I repent of it now, I feel it now and, I mourn the death of my children in depth at this time.

Please read on as I want to tell you the dream that brought me the gift of repentance and forgiveness this day.  I know God has forgiven me because of the dream and depth of my realization of self sin.  Repentance isn’t just a thought.  It is a deep regret and remorse for old behavior.  It involves a grieving process when it is a “sin unto death” that is being repented of.  These sins unto death as Apostle Paul mentioned are much more grievous than a sin that is not “unto death”.  In other words there is a sin that results in the death of the innocent.  OF THESE SINS WE MUST DEEPLY REPENT and if we have not we need to seek deep repentance from God in prayer and fasting if that’s what it takes.  It is VITAL for our soul’s sake.  I repented long ago of these sins but not deeply enough.  I have carried the self anger over them for years.  I have suffered with these sins by my inner heart and soul.

The Story of the Awakening Into Repentance

From the beginning I must share that I asked God to see myself in a true light that I may change. I prayed this because I know how blind we often are to our own true nature.  Last night I was awoken by a presence in my room right beside my bed.  It startled me.  At first I feared the tall male-like presence and thought it was malevolent (evil).    It left quickly when I awoke.  Upon further consideration I felt it was a neutral type spiritual entity. But now I know it was benevolent (good and of God).  I believe it was the Angel of The Lord called Josiel who has given me a dream which played out today as I went through the interpretation with my own spirit guide, remembering nearly every detail and what each detail meant.  Send me your dreams to be interpreted at livingword@jazweeh.com

The Dream 

I lie down to sleep and had a dream.  I saw my friend Joanna who had died in a car wreck.  She held before her a pad and paper.  On it were a disturbing paragraph that she considered a problem as she starred at the page.  As we sat talking I wondered why she was upset with herself.  I tried to tell her how to Love herself again as I was sure she thought she was wrong and bad according to most present day indoctrination that are based in childhood shame, negative labeling, spankings, and violent punishment by those who we trust and Love.

She seemed to be frustrated giving me a sense that I didn’t know what her real trouble was.  We felt the presence of a strong male figure coming up the steps.  He was her judge and told her all the day just how bad she really was for whatever it was that was written in that book about her and what she did during her life on Earth.

My psychological approach to her spiritual problem was amiss.  Suddenly in the dream I was in another room, like a shower room of sorts and I heard the powerful man verbally punishing Joanna.  Suddenly I was in a parlor from about the 18th century with Victorian style furniture.

There was a red velvet sofa that was made of expensive cedar and fabric, very Victorian era.  But the sofa had two splits in it that made it like a sectional sofa.  But it was odd because the middle piece was less than a foot wide. What did it mean?

Then a young blonde headed boy about 9 years old came to sit down with me at a table.  He and I began to play a board game and have fun together.  He sat on my lap and wanted to be very close to me.  Like in the Monopoly game I began buying up every oil rich country available.  The boy looked at me wondering why I would value something so worthless in the spiritual realm and void of value to the spiritually minded as black tar oil.    He just looked at me with inquisitive eyes.  He was so innocent not understanding material possessions.  I still can’t remember if he acquired any property in the board game.  He just wanted to be close to me.

Next I apparently had to leave the room and the boy clung to me.  He wanted so badly to be close to me.  He DID NOT want me to leave EVER.  I heard a loving motherly voice come from what seemed the next room telling him he must let me go.  The boy knew something in his heart that I did not.

The interpretation of the Dream

Firstly Joanna my best friend ever in life who died at an early age had also gotten pregnant and had an abortion.  I was experienced with abortion and cosigned her decision.  Now she is suffering the consequences for that choice.  I repented of my part in her decision.  I may have even talked her into it, I don’t remember it was a long time ago.  We were in our teens.

The book is The Book of Death opposite The Lambs Book of Life.  Her name and her offence are both written in The Eternal Book of the Damned or The Book of Death.  Every day she was visited and punished by the words of her judge.  Every day he came up those steps and reminded her that she shed not just innocent blood but the blood of her blood.  This offence is easily as bad as suicide but it can be forgiven IF we repent with our whole heart.  The message to me was “repent or you also will sit in the judgement chambers” for a very long time and longer.  And I realized that I played a part in her sin.

I was in a “shower room” temporarily to show me that I need a cleansing from God.  My heart is marred and impure.  My body is wrenched with the blood of the innocent. God forbid.

Side note;  لا سمح الله  “Allah” means “God” in Arabic.  This phrase is “God forbid” in Arabic.  Is not their Arabic writing beautiful?

On with the interpretation.

The boy is my own son.  All he wanted from me was Love and I not only rejected him but I snuffed out the life God gave him.  And this my friends is a sin that will NEVER qualify as anything else but sin.  It has NO justification.

The red couch was the life I cut from my own life by the murder I separated myself from God and from my child…the three parts.  Do you know what those sick abortion clinics do with the remains of those sacred unborn children?  It’s Satanic and it’s dark.  You tube it.

The board game revealed my greed and carnal heart which begs repentance and showed my motives of greed and carnality in their true light.

My leaning on the psychology of self love is good but pales in comparison to the self love we receive through getting right with God through Christ Jesus.  Repentance is a gracious gift and without it we are screwed.

I had forgotten even who the fathers of the two babies I had lost by my own hand were.  The interpretation session gave me those memories back.  I wondered why only one child appeared.  Why hadn’t the other lost child come to me in the dream.  I believe that child sleeps and is different than the boy.

I cried for hours morning the lost children.  I carry inner anger at myself and have for years.  Our society condones this type of murder.  How is it not murder except under a delusion of rational?

Please, if you have had an abortion pray now for the gift of repentance before it’s too late.  I have prayed that my friend Joanna can be released from her place of punishment.  I pray for God’s grace on her soul.

The Importance of Dreams

Footnote.  It’s important to dream.  Turn off all wifi and set up a crystal grid (quartz, rose quartz, opal, iron ore whatever you connect with in God’s world of crystals.  This is to protect your dreams during sleep.   Remember Crystals are Gods sacred stones.  They are not worshipped as God but rather they are a spiritual tool and mentioned in depth in Revelation and other sacred books of the Bible.

If you can afford it buy a silver embedded fabric called RF Shield like a mosquito net to cover your entire bed from emf, RF frequencies and 5g that will stop your important dreams that are a communication with God and you spirit guides.  Don’t think just the new agers have the benefit of spirit guides.  God’s chosen elect have many spiritual teachers.  Many who are “just men made perfect” And will come to us and teach us during our dream hours.  Then when we wake the information will stay with us even if we don’t remember the source of that info.

 

 

We Who are Saved MUST Pray for the Remnant Lest Jesus Tarry.

We who feel led can follow this instruction, fast and pray for the final lost souls that are the last to be saved and ushered into the fold of salvation.  Fasting is a powerful weapon for Christian warfare that we should familiarize ourselves with in these last days.

I have fasted before for three days.  On the third day all I could think abut was food.  Nevertheless….I proclaim a 24 hour fast. The prayer will be for the lost who are Gods people to be ushered in now.

WHY CHRISTIANS ARE SO HARD ON THEMSELVES EVEN THOUGH THEY MAY NOT REALIZE IT

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The Great Falling Away

Watch the video it’s absolutely shocking and if these facts are correct then we are seeing the great falling away before our eyes.

2 Thessalonians 2:3

Let no man deceive you by any means: for that day shall not come, except there come a falling away first, and that man of sin be revealed, the son of perdition;

Bible Studies Legally Banned in the United States 2018

The two following stories of recent banning of family and fellowship Bible studies is not only a terrible threat to our freedom but also it’s a horrifying sign of the times we are entering into.  It’s just another fulfilled prophecy about end times and the coming dark events.  If not for the silver white lining of the return of Jesus our King I would be really sad and depressed about this.  But God has told us what is in store and He said that we should be able to tell just what time it is like we can read the coming weather.

It’s one thing hearing about persecution abroad and quite another watching the United States become Christophoebic. For the 16th year in a row, North Korea tops the list of 50 countries ranked for the worst persecution of Christians in the world, according to the Christian watchdog organization Open Doors USA.

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Losing a Soul

Poetry These were written early in my new sobriety.  I had many dark experiences to process from my past world of addiction.  Poetry helped me release the darkness in my soul.  I recommend writing as therapy to all.

        “SAVORY STEW”

 A tall tale of white lies

Circling buzzards fill the skies.

A smoke screen before my face

Silly, Silly human race

Tantalizing bits of chaos and schemes

In my massive book of lost dreams

I search the pages all the night

To find my truth alive and bright

Restore my sight oh sacred ones

I am oppressed beneath my thumb

Fear and pain lets not forget

My tainted life poached in regret

I have worked so hard to forge these anchors

Of safe harbor and greasy cankers

Slippery slides I am bungled up

Another day another sup

Free me now from sticky glue

Then I’ll reject my savory stew

 

            Of Fright______________________________________________

 

05-09-2010

“THE MENU OF SOULS”

Savage Soul Mate imposters ravage through the menu of souls

Be chaste lest your name be embossed on that hearty list

These menacing mud made men full of belial and lust

Fan the nations for available feed

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The Solution to Guilt and Codependency

Herein lies not only the solution to guilt but also the reason for ongoing and debilitating guilt.

Other than the obvious going against our own heart’s voice which we call the conscience there are other macro reasons that we dance in a cycle of on-going guilt which can cause symptoms such as:

  1. Codependency
  2. open and repetitive confession of guilt to other people as if they could somehow relieve our burden.
  3.  Fishing for compliments or fishing for positive reinforcement by haphazard confessions.
  4. Publicly putting ourselves down.
  5. False humility.
  6. Ignorance of God’s plan to relieve guilt by confession to God and man.  “Confess your sins one to another and pray one for another that you may be healed”.
  7. Ignorance of God’s written Word.
  8. Depression
  9. Anxiety
  10. Denial of true wrongs committed.
  11. Self loathing
  12. self pity
  13. Confusion

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The Mandela Effect- Why Do Some People See and Some Not See?

My Born Again Condensed Testimony (first)

Let’s face it, I want to be special to God The Father.  I believe He has given me the desires of my heart.  More than anything throughout my life even from early childhood I have sought the face of God.  I started praying at an early age.  I went through hell on Earth seeking fulfillment in the wrong places.  I spent years in addiction to Heroin, Cocaine, and other drugs.

“MY PEOPLE PERISH FOR LACK OF KNOWLEDGE”

 

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You Have Not Because You Ask Not James 4:2

I want to point out the featured photo scripture should not say “be careful for nothing” that would be careless to be careful of nothing.  It’s either a crappy translation or its a word change.  But rather the message is don’t fear and worry about things.  Just ask your Father God who will provide for us more so even than we provide for our little children.  And surely we should ask God for that which we need if we are feeling it.  It is not a command but rather a suggestion and reassurance.

James Chapter 4 at Blue Letter Bible

James 4:2-3  KJV

2 Ye lust, and have not: ye kill, and desire to have, and cannot obtain: ye fight and war, yet ye have not, because ye ask not.
3 Ye ask, and receive not, because ye ask amiss, that ye may consume it upon your lusts.

Faith in God means exerting the communication from one’s heart to get to know God better.  This includes asking for the things of faith and whatever else we believe we need.  Just like we would, as children ask our Loving Father for something we desire.  Isn’t this part of being “real”?  Is this not part of relationship skills?  Or maybe we are too proud and self sufficient to ask for anything.  Perhaps we are afraid the answer will be “no”.  Nevertheless relationships must include fellowship.  Lest we die and get taken up only to face a Creator who says to us “who are you?”

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Daily Empowerment by The Word

“We are empowered by that which we worship”  Derek Prince

This is why when we worship God we are embowered by His Holy Spirit.  “The Lord dwells in the praises of His people.”  Sorry it seems one of my all time favorite scriptures has disappeared from the Bible all together.  I cannot find it, not even anything close to it.  I did find some “residual” of this scripture more like commentary, not actual verse.

Florida Beach

Unchecked Copy Box 1Pe 2:9

But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvelous light:
28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.   29 For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. 30     And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.

The Mark of The Beast Could be Beast DNA

I wrote this in 2018 July exactly seven years hence.  I think the end of days are coming to an end for the chosen.

Mark of the Beast  (OF COURSE YOUTUBE DELETED THE VIDEO BELOW DUE TO TOO MUCH INFO.  But the info is there you can research it)
It struck me today that we may be over complicating the task of identifying the “mark of the beast”. See video on “Retrovirus Mediated Gene Transfer” – Transgenic Animals
By Anna O Keeffe
Published on Nov 11, 2015
Retrovirus Mediated Gene Transfer – Transgenic Animals

Transgenic definition (Written 2024)
A transgene is a gene that has been transferred naturally, or by any of a number of genetic engineering techniques, from one organism to another. The introduction of a transgene, in a process known as transgenesis, has the potential to change the phenotype of an organism  Example–The expression of the deer boy in what was once fully human.  This is what was in the back scene according to my research.  The A.Z. listed chimp in their ingredients…..the payload they call it.  Along with can sir sale lines. (sound it out)

Transgenic is another word for GMO.  Keep in mind gmo’s don’t produce viable seed that I know of.  So in a few years child birth will likely be a rare occurrence.

(Written 2018)How to fix your DNA naturally and protect it from GMO and transgenic manipulation.

And I thought this Virus to DNA to splicing to change who you are was a new thing. The video has been out since 2015. Theory: NOW WE SEE POSSIBLY WHAT GMO foods are really about. Taking the mark of the beast MUST by all means be a choice otherwise how could we suffer spiritual consequences from it as we would suffer from committing sin lest we do it intentionally?

Furthermore the mark must be a choice or how else would God’s chosen people avoid taking the mark?

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The Chosen People

 

1st Peter 2:9

“But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvelous (should read “GLORIOUS”M.E.) light”.

Are you born again?  Has God delivered you from darkness?  Lord knows I have had several deliverances and healings.  Jesus IS The Great Physician.

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